journeywoman

traversing
internal pathways
there are blockages
unremembered
but no less powerful than those that are clearly visible
in memory

i'm seeking
some peace
and some freedom
revitalisation as well

these times
not the best not the worst
these are the key finding years

let the light shine on dark hidden
habits
self destructive, self sabotaging,

forged in an internal blast furnace
of pain and fear
the child who needed to grow old
and be strong
before her next birthday

to cope with all things without flinching

locking the fear away in the musculature
in the kidneys
the liver, the lungs...

locking the heart against the chance
of pain

sadly this inhibited spontaneity and joy

to understand
is not
to be

but all mountains
are climbed in the same slow way

clickety clack clickety clack....

liquid light

newly washed in white light
i venture into the grey murky shadows
they cling to me
and i attract the dark patches
they stick to my skin and
make me itch

sucked from the clutches of contentment
split from grace
dripped like hot wax onto my record are the
pains and sorrows
burnt into my flesh

i'm reaching towards the light
my hand is a silhouette
beyond it are the things to come

the taste of
perfect pitch

drink 
liquid light

shattered

and fed up
sad
and broken
lost
and late
for everything

sing, sing

i've been learning to sing
it's quite a technical business

i feel toned each time i go to a class

loving it

concert coming up

this is a bit of a scare

trusting in the heavens that i
can do it

bee tray all

betrayal
one of the most
deadly
of the dark destructive
arts

for those who
are
unaware
there are many traps

i vow to fall into them no more
i vow to cleanse the lair
that has left an open door
to my soul
or
more like
to my feelings

i felt burnt
a feel dirty
i am puzzled
and
tired
beyond
measure

goodnight
blog
keep me safe
and all those i love
xoxo

its been real

sometimes

lost and found again and again

reason
without reason

impression
platinum hair glows

even i can't care about this new development

invaluable
when the heart is home

and beating

keep it
give it
show it

it works better when its been broken and mended

oh for a simple sentence!