what am i entitled to?

 tba

panic or attack

 falling

and 

dropping 

stop

need 

help

stop

my equilibrium has deserted its post and everything

overwhelms

stop

the beginning

and the end

the 

same

pain

stop

just stop

bounce back

it's been an awful long time
and in some ways a long awful time

many things have changed
life has taken blood from me
and i worry that i've wilted to a shadow
of my remembered self

feeling the autumn
want to move to the summer
it's a long drive
and i'm uncertain
about which direction is best

i send out love and wait for a bounce back

the sad

the world has made me cry
these tears
fall

it's like that

sing me a song
of the best and the worst times

the cool and the warm
wrapped together
in life's embrace

rock bottom

flatter than the bottom of the tyre
like a stain on the skin
a freckle with ragged edges
or a spill on an old sheet
dried and lifeless

hydration and inflation
milk the dreams
to make it rain
opaque drops of snow white intention

keeping good company
til it hurts

or laying lower than low in the places
where the superior glow
can't shine

i wonder what can you grow here?