strange and normal

y'know
what
it's just trouble
some
times

y'know
it's just disheartening
some
times

but
there
is
a
place
inside

deep

because
some
people
they
come
and they bring the darkness

they
want
to
be
the
ones
the only ones

you
need
to
feed
your
self
bright
white
light

drink
it
down

choke
on
it

and
cough
up
the
dark
chunks

you
can't
use
them
anymore




2

y'know
what
that
voice
it's not yours

it's not theirs

it's
a
loop

an
ancient
loop

the loop is tired

white

finding the white places
inside my motivation

finding the white canvas
contains the hope of every painting

finding the white thought
that believes in the night
and the sun

keeps me warm
and cool

and alive

just a bit further now

its only another day
they've been strung together
for so long now that i cant remember the
beginning
but i want something that i feel
like
feels like it was there in the
beginning
so its a feeling of lostness
lostness
like a faded memory
bleached by chemicals
burned by invisible forces
but it's in there somewhere
just can't quite reach