frozen oranges

went to the hospital
saw sick people
felt sick too
just looking at them
made me know my inner sickness

the unworthiness
the painful tearing up inside my gut
falling over on my face
on the inside
but remaining unspontaneous
frozen in fear

ha ha ha
life

pheel it

pheel
feel
real

oh

oh
oh
oh
ooh

it's
oh
so
controlled