down.. down.. deeper down

its going down
down the pipes
or the sewer
or wherever mood and good humour
go

instead i have
a big lump of anxiety
in my gut
and a lead weight
in my head

and a voice
that tells me it's all a waste of time
give up

can't possibly go anywhere
work!  out of the question!

eyes flat and face deadpan
tears holed up
just inside my eyes

which feel curiously dry
but if i need to talk to anyone
well then they're gonna flood
gonna  flood
meanwhile
rain is falling in my heart